I know it's been a very long time since I last updated, very long time  so here's my promised post....

Sara's (the birthday girl) birthday cake....isn't it so cool? =P

1^st of November:   "Candy apples and razor blades...part. 2"

Meesh threw a great Halloween party today...everybody looked so cute! I went as Little Red Riding Hood like yesterday (yeah, I know I didn't mention it earlier), Meesh went as a fairy, Foofs went as a gangster, Nora as Jack Sparrow and Arien as her pirate servent  

I got married to my best friend Maaria at Meesh's house <3 (and NO! I AM NOT HOMOSEXUAL! I'm still attracted to guys ). Throughout the party Foofs would go around hitting on me and I'd start screaming that I'm a married woman....LMAO! I had so much fun!

15^th of November:   "Candy apples and razor blades...ironically this is part. 3"

I had THREE Halloween themed parties this year! LOL! This time it was to celebrate Baro's 14th birthday party, it was at my other best friend's house, Nadoud.

I have this habbit of locking people in or/and outside rooms so this time I locked everybody outside the house except for 3 girls: Nadoud, Abrar & Yara. 15 minutes after the lock out I decided to let them in...and well, I knew that everybody would start strangling me once they got in so I told everybody to go upstairs and lock themselves in the bathroom...hehe, I'm so evil *mwahahahaha*

We watched "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" at around midnight...Some of the girls were so scared that they didn't even watch the movie *cough* Nadoud *cough*....I thought it'd be so scary, I screamed at the movie's introduction thinking that something really freaky would jump out of the screen. It was SO STUPID! and I don't recommend it to anybody!....next time we should watch "The Exorcist"

Dear readers,

   First of all...I'd like to thank you guys for keeping my journal alive....it means a lot to me  

I know it has been a long time since my last update...and I am really sorry...lots of things have been going around and those things have been keeping me quite busy...I'll make sure that I'll update as soon as possible...love ya guys <3 <3 <3

I'll answer your question and say that the person I was apologizing to in my last post was Maaria...I love her so much and I just thought I had to apologize to her publicly…If you want to find out why I'm apologizing you can check out her blog (yes, she's been updating…believe it or not) and you could see how beautiful my best friend is! I friggin love you my beloved Maaria!

still not tempted to ask for some?       -picture by Mocha

- Nada (the girl who keeps on bugging me for more updates everyday ) told me that I won't have to update if tomorrow's 3eed....hehe....I just love doing the total opposite of what she tells me to do

                 3EED SA3EED EVERYBODY!!

              WA KEL 3AM WA INTO B5EER

So my friend Nada wants me to update…she's always the one behind my not so daily updates….and this time I forced her to write down 5 reasons of why I should update so she did:

"I want you to write a post because:

 1. It makes me happy and it's really fun!

2. I feel relaxed when I see a new post for it makes my day and thus whenever I don't find a post I shut down my computer immediately.

 3. A new post to me is like a mother with a new born baby.

 4. Dunno

 5. Dunno"

I wasn't really convinced with the reasons, but what the heck, I'll update for her sake…I seriously don't know what to write down…so if the following lines look like complete crap I'm not the one to blame….blame Nada…

I'd like to apologize to my dearest friend and if she's reading this I want you to know how much I love you and how much you mean to me…I thought it wouldn't hurt you to this extent, I didn't know that it'd hurt you PERIOD! but since it did…I apologize wholeheartedly…I just wish you could find it in your heart to forgive me because I could never forgive myself… signed, Sara(h)

It's been almost seven days since the mini-holiday started and here's what I've been up to…brace yourself it's way too exciting:

- Sleeping.

- Surfing the internet.

- Going to the bathroom.

- Helping mom out in the kitchen.

- Feeding Toffee.

- Boredom.

- Owner abuse from non other than the one and only Toffee.

- Sore throat.

- Flu…I've been sneezing a LOT…as a matter of fact I just sneezed 5 seconds ago and my older sister is in my bathroom right now washing away cuz I happened to sneeze at her when she was walking right infront of me   

- Coughing …I've got lots of diseases going on…and I'm having over 8 pills a day, that's normal, isn't it?  

Well, I don't know why my dear friend Nada keeps on insisting that I should update…I mean my life's not that interesting although I did squeeze a mosquito two days ago but that's too much excitement for you kidos to handle

READ THIS:

Isn't it funny that when you go to the shops with your friends, you look down at the girl with black jeans and studs but smile at the girl wearing a mini with a t shirt that barely covers anything?

Isn't it funny you can change your music taste to impress a guy but when it comes to a girl who likes her own music and her own style, you give her a mouthful?

Isn't it funny that a guy can get away with being a gangsta but the emo/goth gets a mouthful from everyone.
are you laughing?

Isnt it funny that an emo/goth can be quiet all through the week but gets more shit from everyone than the girl who sleeps around and sells her virginity?

Isn't it funny that you dont mind your friends drinking, smoking but the minute someone mentions emo/goth music you can give them a lecture on melodramatic teenage outcasts?
Im not laughing.

Its so funny that you and your friends can make a girl's life hell and not know anything about the silent battle she might be fighting.

Isn't it funny that you can call emos, punks, goths the retards but still manage to get through your day without an inch of guilt in your heart.

HOW YOU CAN CALL A GIRL A POSER, HOW CAN YOU SAY "YOU'RE NOT EMO", "YOU'RE NOT GOTH" OR "ATTENTION SEEKER" WITHOUT SPENDING A SECOND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY THERE ARE CUTS ON HER WRISTS OR WEARS GOTHIC CLOTHES AND WHY SHE SPENDS HER LUNCH TIME CRYING INSTEAD OF LAUGHING WITH HER FRIENDS. KEEP ON LAUGHING.

Isn't it funny you can say and do all this without any idea of what is going on in this persons LIFE.
Without knowing her situation with her FREINDS.
Or her FAMILY.


BRAVE ISN'T GOING UP ON STAGE AND STRIPPING,
BRAVE IS NOT SAYING A SPEECH OR DUMPING YOUR BOYFRIEND.
BRAVE IS GOING TO SCHOOL ON MUFTI DAY AND NOT FOR A SECOND CARE WHAT THE WHORES AROUND YOU ARE SAYING ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES.
IT'S LISTENING TO YOUR OWN MUSIC AND BEING PROUD OF IT.
IT'S GOING THROUGH EVERYDAY WITH THE THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO YOUR FACE AND BEHIND YOUR BACK AND YOU STILL KEEP QUIET.
ITS KNOWING WHAT YOUR "FRIENDS" ARE SAYING ABOUT YOU AND STILL CALLING THEM YOUR FRIENDS.
BRAVE IS KNOWING THAT TOMOROW ISNT A BRIGHT AND HAPPY FUTURE.
IT'S ANOTHER DAY OF BITCHING AND DODGING RUMORS.
KEEP ON LAUGHING.

So it's Thursday and I just woke up…relishing every moment spent in this STINKIN'  wonderful country…

Yesterday was the last day of school...my friends and I wanted to have fun…coming from the "nerds" it sounded weird…we got dressed in pajamas and slippers…we had our hair tied in two pony tails and to top it off we got our stuffed animals…we looked so hilarious…

7^th & 8^th graders would pass by, stare, and grin…the teachers laughed at us for looking so stupid…amazingly, none of the teachers yelled at us for being dressed that way…it was the total opposite…they played along with us and they even told us all kinds of stories: the Arabic teacher told me about what happened in the beginning of the Syrian show "Bab Al Harra" cuz I told her that I missed the start…The religion teacher started teasing a girl who was making a necklace out of pins and asking her if she could borrow it cuz it'd look perfect with her dress …the English teacher told us about one of her embarrassing life moments…It didn't feel like school cuz we actually had fun …for once in a life time both sides (teachers & the "nerds") got to loosen up…

      ((my stuffed wabbit got to come with me to school  )) 

At night, my sister and I went to her friend's house and we were dressed in graphic t-shirts and converse shoes cuz that's what we agreed on…last week's theme was dressing up emo-ish which was way more fun than yesterday's theme…I really enjoyed my time though everybody else was over 4 years older…

Nothing of interest happened today...I guess I had enough fun yesterday…

Take care…Sara(h) 

-Do you consider yourself popular?

Popular  adj  widely liked and admired; of or for the public in general.

Nope, never did...never will… 

-Are you proud to be a girl?

Kinda…because I would be able to cry and not have people scream "GAY!" at me  

-What was the most embarrassing moment in your life?

I don't know if it's the MOST embarrassing moment of my life but it is quite embarrassing…I'm one of those few people who tend to talk to themselves out loud and would act as if they're talking to a real person…so one day I entered my room and I started to talk to "someone" about what I did today which is actually me talking to myself and so I started laughing and making idiotic movements…I entered my bathroom afterwards to find my sister (we share my bathroom since Toffee took over hers) she looked at me and she was like "are you talking to me?" I stared at her and chuckled "well, do you see anybody else?!"…I don't think she fell for it, and that is why I now use the I'm-talking-to-Toffee-like-duh!-line…and there you go one of Sara(h)'s greatest secrets revealed…     

-If you must choose between Davey Havoc and Gerard Way, who would it be?

People just love irritating me with these kinds of questions…please stop using the who-do-you-like/love/hate-more-questions…I will not, I repeat WILL NOT answer them! 

-If you can make one dream come true, what would it be?

Ironically, I have no dreams... 

-Are you highly concerned about the way you look?

What do you think?!  

-Do you believe in being different from anybody else?

I believe in being different from EVERYBODY else…and I hate it when people question me why I wear a specific thing…it's my friggin body and I can do whatever I want with it…and wearing black is my friggin business and not yours…so don't come telling me that I didn't wear black years back…I change! Get over it! 

 -Do you make a huge deal about one little thing?

Yeah… 

-Do you love being the centre of attention?

Nope, and that is why I hate my birthday…

I went to Maaria's yesterday...we had so much fun from beginning to end...well, at  least I had fun until the end  I was literally kicked out of the house from all the laughing  It isn't my fault she's such a silly person even when she's not supposed to be  

She kept on asking me if I got bored but I wasn't!! Not 1% of me got bored while I was there...It 's just that I felt ever so comfortable with her sitting there...I didn't need any method of entertainment...I just wanted to sit next to her...I'm so blessed to have her in my life...love you Maaria

I can say that I'm a happy person...Happiness feels good...it feels warm...how did I ever forget?!

Mocha, Maaria, Meesh, Nadood, Yara, Arien, Angel, Sara (Angel's younger sister), Abrar, Feda, Jood, Lujain & Fedex....love you guys!! Thanx for making me happy  

I'm ditching school today but before we go into that...let's go back into the past...my past...

*flashback*

14/4/1428….I was sitting in the very back of my class, paying no attention whatsoever to the talking Geography teacher…never really paid attention in class…as a matter of fact I only pay attention when the finals come knocking…and some people get frustrated when I get higher marks than they do especially since they work their asses off 24/7…back to main subject…the girl sitting next to me ((Arien)) is not the kind of person who pays attention as well…fantastic duo, eh?...so she started playing with my stuff and fooling around…eventually my eraser fell of the table and I asked her if she'd get it cause she was the reason it fell off in the first place…the teacher saw us talking to each other and Arien standing up to get the eraser…you'd think the teacher would scream at both of us…no, she didn't…she just screamed at me in a very high pitched voice…I could swear that the whole school heard my name that day…let alone school, UNIVERSE!...so I got really mad cause I'm not the kind of person who'd accept being screamed at…At the end of the same class, the teacher asked us if we could open page 106 and start filling out the first exercise…and well, I just had to keep my pride and not open that page…she started going around the class correcting books…and when she got to my table…the real fiesta began…she started opening my book and I remember how coldly I talked to her "don't work yourself out opening my book…you won't find anything written"…but she wouldn't listen to what I was saying...she took out a red marker and wrote down, ever so gracefully,may I add, "didn't fill out exercise during class"…and that paper will always be in my heart and memories…

(The Famous Paper of Mine)

*end of flashback*

That's about the only time I've ever been non-nerdy…The problem is that I filled out the exercise once I got home…

And today is the second time I do something that is so non-nerdy…well, I wasn't the only one not attending school…and I wouldn't wanna be there when class (A) let's out a rat in the hallway…don't ask!

And it feels so bad good that I'm not going…well, at least it was extremely fun looking at my brother's face when I was telling him that I wouldn't have to attend while he did *laughs an evil laugh*

 Until my next ironic adventure…The Blaqk Parade